My story

I was a hard kid to deal with. They said I was aggressive and bipolar they called me crazy and impulsive. Sent me to therapy even though I didn't want to go. It never helped they always threw everything in my face. They put me on a bunch of meds. I was in and out of foster care growing up we should've had a revolving door. They would come and take us late at night I remember being woken up by my grandma and taken to the hospital in an ambulance and seen the officers put our old step dad in the back of their car. No foster family wanted me; not for to long, I'd be taken again and again I've been in unsafe homes they shouldn't have had their license, they drew lines on the snack containers so we couldn't get anything to eat unless at meal times we was locked outside the family didn't care if it was winter and we didn't have any winter clothes on to keep us warm I tryed hitting the window with part of a tree but got in more trouble. They lied about us because who would believe the foster kids over the foster family. They lied about wanting visits with our mom and said we hated her, hid birthday cards and everything our mom sent. I started having issues with my heart and passing out and my foster mom said I was just looking for attention but when I finally moved I was still passing out so I was sent to a heart specialist in fort Wayne and he diagnosed me twice, the first was brugada syndrome than the second was Autonomic Dysfunction. They had me on heart monitors told me to not run around or do anything that could make my heart race. The biological kids of one of the foster family's I was in tied me to a tree because they wanted my candy and I didn't give it to them. I was 12 when I started seeing my mom every day. I believe I was 13 when she got custody again but I started getting in trouble with the law. I hit my sister in the head with a baseball bat and she was taken to the hospital and she had to have it glued shut and I kinda ruined her summer cause she couldn't really go swimming not like everyone else could cause she couldn't submerge it under water which I could tell upsetted her. So I was put on probation for battery I was suppose to do 6 months but I didn't get off until I was 16. I started hanging out with people I shouldn't of hung out with and got into drugs. I was on spice and I would hallucinate and have seizures. My little brother found me in an alley, my mom was the first to always arrive at the hospital. I only have 1 picture from when I was in active addiction. I was happy one minute and let myself go and that upsets me. My family was scared of me and at 1 point they didn’t want me at home anymore, they were scared I was gonna hurt them. I was in and out of behavior hospitals from age 10 to 13 I was their so many times they started refusing to take me again. I was sent to residential for 7 months when I got out I was only out for a couple months and I was sent to ACJC I went their 3× and when I came home from their I went back to the same friends and the same lifestyle so I was sent to Madison. My first time their I spent 8 and a half months and came home I was out for about a month and went back to ACJC for 2 weeks on DOC hold after violating probation 12 times and was facing 2 new charges. My second time I was their for 9 months. I was put on probation when I was 13 and was only suppose to do 6 months but it was extended to 3 years before I got off. I wouldn’t be anywhere in my life if my mom gave up on me but she was always by my side and at that time in my life I thought she hated me and was out to get me but I’m glad she did everything she did. I’m so glad that my family never gave up on me even though sometimes it felt like they did♥️I'm glad I'm clean cause now I have 2 beautiful babies and I'm taking courses to be a forensic anthropologist, crime scene investigator, as well as a lawyer! I'm finally making something out of my life and I couldn't be more proud.